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Is it possible to feel absolutely empty for a whole month. It was not supposed to be this way right? Life is not supposed to be this hard and it keeps getting harder every single second. If life is supposed to be this way then why am I getting weaker instead of getting stronger.
Why am I the weak one here. I've had everything taken away from me till I have nothing else to give. I thought the pain is going to stop. I thought time heals everything. Time heals wounds and sure they leave scars. But I've been good, I've been trying so hard not to peel off the scabs. Did I? So why do I still feel empty and misery?
What have I done? I've had my whole life figured out since I was six. I had a stable life before. I've had everything. And now, even my broken soul whimpers, aching to be released from this pain. What should I do. I have never been so lost.
Sure I have. Couple of years ago. How did I managed to survive that. I have forgotten on how to survive and how to live again. I'm neither good nor bad. I'm human. I live on the grey area. I sure deserve some happiness after what I've been through before right.
One day I'm going to lose it. My senses, my consciousness, my grip on reality...
I'm going to create a world on my own, where reality and fantasy mix. Where the word pain is considered foreign and alien.
I have these questions that were left unanswered. I couldn't find anyone to answer them let alone answering them myself.
I need help.
Assalamualaikum.
p/s: I have a test for tomorrow
Why am I the weak one here. I've had everything taken away from me till I have nothing else to give. I thought the pain is going to stop. I thought time heals everything. Time heals wounds and sure they leave scars. But I've been good, I've been trying so hard not to peel off the scabs. Did I? So why do I still feel empty and misery?
What have I done? I've had my whole life figured out since I was six. I had a stable life before. I've had everything. And now, even my broken soul whimpers, aching to be released from this pain. What should I do. I have never been so lost.
Sure I have. Couple of years ago. How did I managed to survive that. I have forgotten on how to survive and how to live again. I'm neither good nor bad. I'm human. I live on the grey area. I sure deserve some happiness after what I've been through before right.
One day I'm going to lose it. My senses, my consciousness, my grip on reality...
I'm going to create a world on my own, where reality and fantasy mix. Where the word pain is considered foreign and alien.
I have these questions that were left unanswered. I couldn't find anyone to answer them let alone answering them myself.
I need help.
Assalamualaikum.
p/s: I have a test for tomorrow
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