Being 20

As much as I hate to admit it guys, I am TURNING 20. ((well techinically it's not till August)) but I couldn't deny when people ask how old am I. Though, I did lied a little telling them I'm still 19. Hehe.

Being almost 20 hm. Isnt this supposed to be the age where you got your life plan figured out ? Well not everything but at least there's something right ? This is the age where you are SUPPOSED to determine what are you going to do for your future. (( your course, life goals and what not )) but hell I still couldn't figure out what filter to use for my photos, let alone to start determining my life. *lame coughing* 

When adults ((aka mom n grandmother + aunties)) asked me on what plans do I have for my future, I just smiled sheepishly and said 'entahlah'. I am a changed person, I used to be so full of life and planning and goals. I HAD a big dream and then life happened. Problems came tumbling, well piling, suffocating me until all there is left for me are cracks of old hopes and dreams. I barely see them anymore. 

Damn

Two different sides of my mind are not working cooperatively. One side is telling me to wake up, to stop moping and get on with my life and the other side sympathise me, telling me it's okay to cry, let it all out baby girl. So what does this has something to do with turning 20? Nothing, haha. I just feel like babbling. 

Maybe turning 20 is all bout depressing moments, heartbreaks and figuring yourself out.

So goodluck to those who are turning 20. Hey ho